Eight Months Too Fast

Hello Sweethearts,
   You are now eight months old. That is how incredibly fast this is going. Just yesterday you were sixth months and I was going to write another letter about all your developmental milestones. At least by seven months. But here we are. I hate it. I hate how fast things are going. How quickly you are changing. How big you seem and how much older you are both looking. It makes me a little sad.
    But I can't waste time being sad about this because you are SO SO FUN and you make me SO SO HAPPY! You guys just keep getting cuter and cuter every day. And even though each day makes you further away from those tiny little NICU babies you not so long ago were, it is more fun than the next day. You are both changing so much. Benjamin, you are ready to take off! You are crawling-with little belly breaks in between scoots-but you want to go places. You roll and scoot and crawl and rock and you are all over the place. Luckily you don't leave rooms yet or go up stairs. You are happy in a small space as long as you have things to explore. Eleanor, you are so content just sitting in the same spot for long periods of time. You will just look around and hold objects in your hand, put them to your mouth, look around some more, and then find a new object. You are each very different from one another and very special in your own way, but equally adorable.
    This month we found a nanny. Her name is Stacie and she knows all about twins. She is going to be great and I think you will both really like her. Your mom spent a lot of time looking for the perfect nanny. I am nervous about leaving you, but Stacie seems to really get twins and really know a lot about babies. Brynn will watch you on the other two days. I can't believe we have just two more months together at home. I am going to be so so sad when I go back to work. I know I did it before, but you were so little then and didn't do much. And you were a lot of work! Now you are so fun and easy and cute. I will miss all of our play time and smiles. I want to be really careful with these next two months and spend them doing fun things together and being really, really present with each of you.
 I love you both more than I ever thought I would. I'm understanding now why people have lots of kids and why they say it is all worth it. You have blessed my life more than I ever imagined.
With all my love,
Mom